Enter MY's puny Mind...

the time is near

2010-10-05T22:39:00.000+08:00

the time is near.

no time to waste on leading a mediocre life.

for YOU, Father.

Thorn in my flesh

2008-09-10T10:52:00.002+08:00

thorn in my flesh.

2 Corinthians 12:5-10

5I will boast about a man like that, but I will not boast about myself, except about my weaknesses. 6Even if I should choose to boast, I would not be a fool, because I would be speaking the truth. But I refrain, so no one will think more of me than is warranted by what I do or say.
7To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. 8Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. 9But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 10That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Paul shared this letter with the people in Corinth following a vision that he had. While Paul was there, he faced numerous challenges - false teachers and a church that was plagued with immorality and idolatry. This is not unlike the situation in Singapore where we idolise the latest handphone models and branded goods. We also have to address the issues of false teachers in which the world teaches us that we shd embrace relativism - to embrace the presence of many truths. We're told to be tolerant (say only what they like to hear) to others when we should be loving them. And loving means having to speak the truth so that others may not be blinded by lies and deception.

So when Paul spoke, it was a tremendous task since there would be many to pinpoint, fault and question him. Still, he "boasted" because he knew the truth that he was speaking was not self-motivated and nothing to be ashamed of.

God speaks to each of us in His own way. Many times, He speaks to us personally so that the Word examines our hearts and seek out ways that are displeasing to Him.

It is easy to be complacent when we have heard from God. Sometimes pride swells when our observations resonates with God's heart. During times like these, it is easy to just verbal diarrhoea and speak in self-righteousness. In Paul's case, he spoke the truth as it is - drawing nothing to himself but simply to the Word of God.

Paul was also aware that a thorn in the flesh was inflicted on him. He repeatedly pleaded with God to remove it (3 times). Perhaps this was inflicted so that his self-sufficiency may be eradicated.

God doesn't always yield to the pleas of men so that His grace and power may be shown. Ultimately, God has given us His grace that we may bear it. It would not be beyond what we can bear. So that others may see the work of God; and not be distracted by the workmen instead.

Let's not waste time groaning about the thorn and be debilitated by it.

God has been speaking alot on dependency on Him. So let's boast of His strength and might.

Jeremiah 9:23-24

23 This is what the LORD says:"Let not the wise man boast of his wisdom or the strong man boast of his strength or the rich man boast of his riches, 24 but let him who boasts boast about this: that he understands and knows me, that I am the LORD, who exercises kindness, justice and righteousness on earth, for in these I delight," declares the LORD.

final.

2007-11-28T18:06:00.001+08:00

this is final post.

n i'm taking out the previous post. coz too emo to end. i dun like sad endings.

i hate nightmares.

btw, mandy!!! welcome home!!!!!!!!!!!!!! n i'm going away now. man.

thanks for being in my life

2007-11-22T23:54:00.001+08:00

thanks.

thanks for being in my life.

call it another name.

2007-11-19T23:05:00.001+08:00

mayb u shd find another name for your so-called cheap "love".

surreal.

2007-11-15T22:18:00.000+08:00

surreal.

i met tommy tdoay!!!! my ex-DTP teacher. he looks exactly the same as when i last saw him. i can't rem watever he taught but dat he gave his time for us...

even tonight. he was with one of his surbordinate if i'm not wrong. i guess this is wat God calls us to do? to be there for ppl.

i'm still in disbelief. how coincidental can it be?!?!?!? me calling zhen n zhen being willing to go to serene ctr at 8 plus in the evening... n dat i felt like eating at la petite cuisine. if we din eat there... we definitely wont c him... was thinking of island creamery only initially. unbelievable...

pls the opportunities in french class. how amazing.

eagles

2007-11-09T00:09:00.000+08:00

soar.

temple of the holy spirit.

undefile.

utterances.

eagles.

if they speak, wat do they say?

i am...

2007-11-05T22:48:00.000+08:00

speak.

my name is mindy.
je m'appelle mindy.
watashi wa mindy.
wo de ming zi shi mindy.
nama saya mindy.
knnyom chmoo'ah mindy.

to love or to be loved.

2007-11-02T20:16:00.000+08:00

booking.

man. got a book. so emo. n i'm enjoying it. tst.

been thinking.

many times, many ppl claim to love. actually wat they want, is to be loved more den 2 love.

den i thot. God says He is love. wat does it mean to u?

wat does it mean to me?

painkiller and aggravator.

2007-10-31T18:00:00.000+08:00

"Love? What is it? Most natural painkiller what there is"
-William S Burroughs-

tst Futon! never add postscript.

P.S. dependent on the kind of love u'r dependent on. got phoney one dat causes more pain.

waiting for my 4th french lesson. this is amazing. i'm still going strong... 6 more weeks to go.

deep waters

2007-10-31T17:27:00.000+08:00

Proverbs 20:5
The purposes of a man's heart are deep waters,
but a man of understanding draws them out.

cut the crap.

2007-10-29T23:24:00.000+08:00

introspection.

the truth has been spoken in silence.

speak for oneself.

please find me un your dreams

2007-10-27T03:39:00.000+08:00

my new love.

Dear (your name here)

You'll be the perfect girl
The only one in this world
Who's fit for my embrace
Helps me to seek His face
He'll be our everything
It'll bring us joy to sing together
And be unmoved forever
You're a figure in my mind today
You're somewhere in a far-off place
I pray that I could see your face
Just a glimpse of it and I'm okay
Your name is still a mystery to me
If I could only see the one God intended for me
I'll see you in my dreams
Where are you today
Do you pray as I pray
Are you out looking for me
Or will it take some time to see
There's someone waiting for you
Who will love you and adore you
And be there by your side
Until the end of time
And as I walk this world,
I search each passing face
Praying by His graceI will find but a trace of you
The one Im longing to
Be with for forever
Through lifes many endeavours
I pray you'll soon find me
Even if only in your dreams
© 2005 - 2006 Dear (Your Name Here)

GOD

2007-10-24T16:55:00.000+08:00

pray.

If your god gives u everything u ask for?

u sure that's a god? or r u a god instead?

u sure u wanna trust in a god like dat?

thank u for your continued support.

2007-10-18T15:22:00.000+08:00

thank u.

i realised i exceeded 300 entries. n i cant tahan anymore. been corrected more times den i expect to... n obviously, the persons who corrected make a difference to how i react as well..

so for the record, the correct english phrase is "thank you for your continued support"

n thank you for your goodwill but i put much thots into the notices i release so pls ponder and check b4 u offer ur kind suggestions.

TST!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the end

2007-10-14T22:41:00.000+08:00

the end, of one chapter.

so much thots flying in my head. myriad of emotions. dun think words can suffice.

only one major thot. how can God love wretched creatures such as me.

so so so tough. man.

whirlwinding!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-10-01T20:21:00.000+08:00

whhoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!

whirlwind week... it seemed like neverending n super jam-packed... so shagged dat i fell asleep n missed my stop twice in a row. n it hasnt happened for eons...

went to timbre @ arts house on fri n the goodfellas were there!!! man! i'm so falling in love with them. hahahaa... if only i were good at animation, it'd do the finger sign dat yewli conjured. good one there!

worked till 5pm on sat n missed my JBJ!!!!! so so super sad. i was so so looking forward to it! i'm so utterly SAD! really SAD. but i got a lovely tee 2 cheer myself up. n i'm gonna miss pillowman! does it get more depressing?!?!??!

went to ben's 21st bday celebration!!! hahahaa... stoopie me got such a huge bouquet of sparklers dat i freaked myself out when it burnt a ball of fire. fwahahaaa... sequel to ball of fury! n bendy got so dirtied with all the "toppings" we rained on him...

den the next morning... YRF were on a mission to entertain the kids for children's day. had plenty of fun on the trampoline n watching them do the things i always do... like pull shoes off their fren... n chase one another ard. thanks to Huiling, Sab, Ken, Darren & Tim for making a children's day out of 30th sep for the kiddos!!!

n as usual, waged war on teemotee! heh heh... den had emoments creating his name using his spilled blood. so darn sick! n i got mix instead of min coz i lazy to chk b4 imprinting. tim!!!! bleed again!

FFF!!!

sun was super fruitful. den went to watch Jason n his eisen guards rock the stage outside cineleisure... Jason, we how love u. it was such a HOT sunday. but it was well worthed it! i think all performers shd get auntie susan to critique their performance. she was saying early into the performance that the lead vocal was wearing sandals. n like wat the emcee said. first time see rocker wear sandals lah! hilarious!

got to see this charles guy do beatboxing. quite good! n i got to know this gal n wanted to share Christ but missed the moment. i wish i had seized it! we think too hard too much at the wrong times. hope i c her again...

n i went on a mag spree again... fwahahaa... got budget travel, new scientist, archaeology reviews. hahahaa... how exciting!!!!!!! n watched my first russian movie - the italian. the lil boy is so super duper sweet.

2day worked till 6pm. so so tired... feels drained after my deprivation of JBJ n no worship on sun. feels spiritually drained ahhhh!!!!!!

more excitement coming. i so need to be good.

hardcore shopper

2007-09-19T19:59:00.000+08:00

hardcore.

been on supermarket spree for the bintan trip. ultra hardcore. everyone was staring. hey! i gotta feed 15 ppl for 3 dayz canz? so 15 bags of chips and more den 10 cans of rotting food is normal alrite...

fwwaahaahahaa... praying hard the customs will allow my cold hard chickens n dogs to pass... pls pls pls...

went on a poddie feeding spree... fwaaahahahaa... for once! HMV had all dat i wanted! fwaaaahaahahahaa... how happie but too hardcore lah. though only halfway through my loyalty card. tst! only 2 mths. i gotta buy like another 15 CDs. how tough. daz singerz is so freaking full now. *satisfied*

last yr this time... was queuing with CY for the mooncakes at com ctr. this yr they were pressing me big time to buy. duhz! thanks lah. who order but din collect? but they really had the champagne one lehz. not like it gives any kick but seriously, best mooncakes this season. trust me! i sample alot lah... doc dun wanna bring them home so we eat mooncakes everyday. overkill!

hanging out abit too much also. next wk like packed also. piangz. like very long never rot at home. reach home only time to kiss pillowillow.

man. i'm feeling super sleepy again.

it's ok... plenty of time to chill in bintan!!!!!!!!! here i come!!!!! hope i get to work my indo genes abit!

monkey trees

2007-09-14T00:55:00.000+08:00

monkeys!

this is mindy yeo reporting live from jurong west st. 42. it's freaking 1am in the morning and there might be a hundred ppl surrounding the tree on which there are monkeys imprinted on. ya ya!!! feed more bananas to the trees! ya... if i were a bookie, i'd set up a stall there. collect bets n sell bananas as well. can retire at ripe old age of 25 with the crowd there.

now it has expanded from one tree to 2 trees. dongz. i rather listen to my indo podcast! wat the heck!

b4 memories fail...

2007-09-12T12:50:00.000+08:00

knock.

one great birthday. great way to begin the 25th yr. man... dunno how much longer. hahaha... but thanks to my chummies... the journey shd b more bearable. getting forgetful so i jux wanna note this down b4 i close this in 4 postings.

got off to a fantastic start with my over-decade-old pallies... must thank jj for putting so much thot in shortlisting the location. da dear gal obviously know my preferences... n for the rest... for taking the time to pop down after work or watever crap u all hv been through during the day. n of course must thank elvin for getting us dat cosy spot in oosh on a fri nite. how tough. n for the rides he always offer!! JJ! good one!!

n my bestie bud Yewli with all the torture she endured to get me all the stuffs dat i love. man... friendship doesnt get any deeper when a bud knows wat u want n get it for ya lahz! love every single one of the gifts, honey!!! esp dat lovely frame u did! ur bro no taste lahz.. wahahaha... muackies!!! n CY n her gotta tahan having supper jux so they could spend the first moments of 911 with me. man... i so undeserving lorz.

mandy dearz who despite exams still rem n smsed in advance. dearie!!! thanks for always being ard. life would suck big time without u! when u gonna hang out with me again!?!?! so missing those silly times!!

n cuckooduck!!!! so diabetes-inducing. to rem n call despite the distance. super ultra super sweet. i so super duper ultra touched. come back soon!!!!! n if u need anything, u know u can find it in the sand dunes!

n SC who was worrying the whole nite whether i got the bouquet... wahaahaa... sweet. beautiful flowwwwerss!!! so love them! n the countless surprises n gifts she got... so so so thotful! my fave gems... my patissier... hahahaa... even my ratatouille... hahaha... sorry i gotta pangseh for din din...

suyi also upped my glucose level with ben & jerry with 25 flaming candles... heh.. who needs a flaming lamborghini now? n the dear gal forgot the candles n gotta run down for it again. thanks thanks thanks...

n for all who rem n dropped an sms... like our flyboy in oz, nnp (i seriously was super surprised!!! hahaha... u scared neb get threadless eh?) thanks thanks thanks. i forgot so many of ur bdays... my bad! i really dun deserve all this love... but i promise to love God more... so i can learn to love u back with His perfect love yea? wat else can i offer neh?

THANKS!!

loved. so loved.

2007-09-11T22:40:00.000+08:00

loved. so loved. so very loved.

thanks peeps. i really feel the love.

gush gush gush. thanks really. there's nothing more i could ask for. got so much more den wat i deserve.

i dun think thank u is enuff. but still. thank u. everyone. so much!

especially those who stood by when i'm at my most unlovable.

how can i ever thank u all enuff?

how happy!

2007-09-04T21:50:00.000+08:00

happy ya ya!

was feeling the blues when zhen came n give me this kenzo summer in a mango case! how cool!!!! was looking for it after i broke the bottle she gave me but to no avail... n now!!! i got one in the mangie casing. how cool lah! 2 loves given by my major love. how loved! aaawwwwwwwwwww....

n SC was trying to intro her cousin to me. hhhmmmm... no thanks. i've the i looking sign mehz? i dun want wat i dun want lah dehz. mannnn... i rather not hv den hv something less den wat i want lah dehz...

was thinking bout the different loves - agape, philos n eros... how we always rank the least sacrificing one at the top n let God's agape love sink to the bottom of our list... how could we?

insomiaced

2007-09-02T15:18:00.000+08:00

insomniaced.

a bout of insomnia last nite. so bushed now. shall catch a wink after tis. tim + fren + bren shd thank hz... would hv left their threadless till later. good thing i din... a few items out of stock already. i actually curbed any urge to get anything for myself. hahahaa... overstated considering dat i'd my shopping kick yesterday. kaa~

tsusie gg back tmr morning. gotta get quite abit of getting used to it after having him ard to jack me n argue with me so often for the past few mths. this is gonna b so tough. aahhhzzz... i hate the season of departure

den... was reading emails from nadia... an ozzie i met in hk almost exactly a mth ago... she's like having one heck of a great time jux travelling travelling n travelling... i need to do this soon. soon pls come.

i realise i quite dislike the mth of sep. urrgghhhzzz...

I love YOU, GOD. i do!

2007-08-30T23:42:00.002+08:00

On my epitaph...

"Naked I came from my mother's womb,
and naked I will depart.
The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away;
may the name of the LORD be praised."
Job 1:21

I love YOU, GOD. i do!

2007-08-30T23:42:00.001+08:00

appletinied

2007-08-23T18:57:00.000+08:00

appletinied...

this is freaking spooky... drink of the day on facebook was appletini n i had it last nite. dongz!

thinking of further shortening rambutku. really tak senang dengannya... apakah?

laugh it all away...

2007-08-22T10:32:00.000+08:00

jiwoned.

hhmm... trying to get used to it. dong. i imagine missiles flying already. hahaha... i know. dun understand rite? secret.

hv a pat trying to intro me to her husband's fren yesterday. hhmmm... for the record, not looking. single but not available until further notice. maybe like 13 yrs later... but i've got hordes of lovely ladies who deserve responsible n good guys who hv the courage to love n take seriously good care of them. dumb, deaf n blind ones dun qualify. tst! still havent gotten my "an angle" CD with this song. tst tst.

considering buanging my ipod. deafens me from God. i know. ahhhhh!!!!!! surrender.

13 more entries to new blogspot. but i forgot the address. excellent job!

God is good. All the time. AMEN!

YOU reign

2007-08-18T23:22:00.001+08:00

To man belong the plans of the heart,
but from the LORD comes the reply of the tongue.
Proverbs 16:1

What can i do but thank You?
What can i do but praise You?

You Are God Alone (Not A god)Billy Foote, Cindy Foote
Key: AIntro:
A D A D
Verse 1:
A D
You are not a god created
A
By human hands
D
You are not a god dependent
A
On any mortal man
E/G# F#m
You are not a god in need of
D A
Anything we can give
E/G#
By Your plan
A/C# D
That's just the way it is
Chorus:
A
You are God alone
E/G#
From before time began
F#m
You were on Your throne
D
You were God alone
A
And right now
E/G#
In the good times and bad
F#m
You are on Your throne
D
You are God alone
Bridge:
A
You're Unchangeable
E/G#
You're unshakable
F#m
You're unstoppable
D
That's what You are
Verse 2:
You're the only God whose power
None can contend
You're the only God whose name and
Praise will never end
You're the only God who's worthy
Of everything we can give
You are God
That's just the way it is
©2004 Billy Foote Music (Admin. by Integrity Music, Inc.) Integrity's Hosanna! Music All rights reserved. International copyright secured.CCLI song #4243463

pick me up...

2007-08-18T03:20:00.001+08:00

pick up me.

ulcerating

2007-08-13T22:34:00.000+08:00

ulcerating...

pain ah. after laughing at boss bout his wisdom tooth removal n all. now my mouth aching from ulcers... super irritating...

today totally not my day lah. *reminder* hello mindy, since when is it ur day. *note* MON-day, TUES-day, WEDSNES-day, THURS-day, FRI-day, SATUR-day, SUN-day... no MIN-day neh.

well... watever.

my travel journey for today:
MAH-Clover Crescent-MAH-JM-Queensway-Bugis-Suntec-Home

n i got flamed with my most detested vulgarity at the TB taxistand by a convent gal. most probably st. Theresa's. i can't believe it. i super never steal cab n i got scolded for doing so. if i wasnt in a hurry. tst!

n i thot the suntec donut factory doesnt hv a queue. BLuffzZ!!!

n the macha ice-cream nearby totally cannot make it. confirm with close down in at most 3 mths. gross!

while tsusie enjoyed his zzzzzhi-char dinner. tst!

happie me!

2007-08-12T21:18:00.000+08:00

laugh!

this makes me really happy!

scanz

2007-08-11T13:47:00.000+08:00

fly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

on the back on a pick-up. love it love it love it...

was at settler's on 2 consecutive days... there was this really helpful guy who tried to recommend packages n all while i was sitting n warming up the seats... but i splashed cold water by saying i knew wat i wanted already... he seemed disappointed but was relentless... came by later to take orders n all... n was so excited when we asked him to recommend games... hahaha... this is the way service staffs shd b eh... when we were chased out... he quickly tried to help us arrange for an additional table but to no avail. nevertheless... thanks dude!

anywayz... dat got me a chance to ride on minghui's pick-up. super cool. wahahaa.. in my office attire n heels no less. super retarded... took photos, screamed n laughed! felt like 15 again... hahaha... dat was like a decade ago... dun care. dun care how silly i look or sound... i'm never gonna let the wind disappear from my hair... even if i laugh the entire block of condo awake... hahaha... sorry, serene...

kept thinking bout how temporal n short-lived things are... really hope the things dat make me laugh like crazy never disappear... i wanna keep laughing at the things i laughed at when i was 5, 10, 15, 25, 35, 45, 55, 105... hahaaa... gosh. dunno if i can laugh all dat way... kinda hoping the way wouldnt be dat long...

tsstt... kinda in an emo mood. shd hv dumped my blue october CD... i wonder where my randy & mandy is... tssst!

kaaaa... shall go out n laugh at things. doodeedahz! oh yea, poddie's back in biz. looking for a name though. haaa...

welcome to Singapore (zoo)

2007-08-09T11:24:00.000+08:00

knock.

in case u din hv time to watch tv, we'r granting citizenship to other species apart from homo sapiens in a bid to raise falling population growth.

mama

2007-08-07T00:30:00.001+08:00

mama

the sound of mama reminded me of mama...

n having a mama urge me to eat this evening... so warm.

miss mama...

True freedom

2007-08-06T22:19:00.000+08:00

freedom.

so many ways to bring across a single message...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7X_bHvqzUZE

was at FOP last night and heard God speaking as I was praying for our Korean bros & sisters... He asked, "how else can the taliban militants be reached if not for the captivity?" of course, there'r many ways... n this is one of His.

makes sense... knowing dat our ultimate hope is not about this life that we live but the life for eternity.

had dinner with Kenton's family today n gotta know the renowned "Empress Dowager"... amazing figure... she bestowed blessings on her grandson in the name of Jesus Christ... reminds of the ancient days when fathers bestowed blessings upon their children. so sweet.

kimchi n more

2007-08-04T23:13:00.000+08:00

kimchied again. in a different land. in fact, it felt more like i was in korea den in east asia the whole time i was there. we totally din eat any chinese food or at least i din... very blessed time with the koreans n chinese although i was totally not expecting the korean presence. nevertheless, God continues to use His ppl to spur one another...

my first time sharing gospel so many times in a single day n using mandarin to share n pray. gosh... it was tough. totally had to rely on Holy Spirit to put the words in my mouth. n God truly sustained us though we were all in dire need of sleep... i was so tired i couldnt wait 2 go home although i was expecting to spend 3 days in hk...

learnt many lessons from the koreans again... how they showed authentic love despite the language barrier... n served in excellence inspite of their fatigue... learnt how forthcoming they were... n i was so thoroughly touched by how they spur n encourage one another. gosh. so much to learn. i guess all these start with prayer... to desire to draw near n lean on the Father b4 proceeding to rely on our own strength.

on the last evening, the pastor openly declared her displeased for the lack of energy in the dancers... i was more touched den angry with her expression. coz it showed how serious she was with God... n wanted to give only their best. besides... everything they did, u could see how much effort they really put in... i feel so ashamed that i often gave sloppy work unto the Lord... how could those count as living sacrifices?

the last nite was phenomenal as i witnesses the Holy Spirit touched the hearts of the Koreans... their love visibly overflowed and overwhelmed the workers... n many entered the Kingdom. however, the battle has not ended until our Lord's name has reached anyone... will we stand in the gap or would we widen the gap?

the death of an ipod

2007-07-29T17:47:00.000+08:00

RIP.

it's official.

doodeedah poddie is dead. gosh. must b smelling real bad. it's been dead since i left for korea.

i shall schedule for a proper funeral when i get back.

if it resurrects, it's must b God's work. if it doesn't, God is still at work. i think he wants my attention.

discontinued

2007-07-28T22:05:00.000+08:00

de-listed/discontinued.

haagen daz discontinued my fave ice-cream flavour - brandied cherry. thanks. now i've no reason to eat ice-cream! so insensitive towards picky me lor. it's the most unique flavour canz. now eating ice-cream has become meaningless lah. booohoohooohooohooohooo!! man... this is gonna take forever for me to get over it. i shall try n see if i can find it in hk.

well... ice-cream aside... was looking through the notes dat mama left behind. i realised that i've a stash of $1 notes of at least 3 kinds... gosh. history of nation-building depicted through the change in currency n all...

n... i went on a mag shopping spree! kaaaa! i'm so hardcore!

so so so tired. hardly unpacked n gotta pack up again. i wonder wat surprises await me. hahahaa... as usual. i dun feel like leaving jux b4 a trip.

okiez. orhz time. nitez babies.

God be glorified

2007-07-25T23:11:00.001+08:00

bros n sisters in Christ have been held captive in Afghanistan for the last few days for heeding the call to go out and make disciples of all nations. one has been martyed. he/she was killed for wanting to share the love of Christ through teaching or caring for the sickly.

indeed, it is the sick who need the doctors. when we see the need, do we offer the helping hand at any expense?

or hv we taken our salvation for granted. forgetting that the reason we can receive the grace, was bcoz centuries ago, there were people who were compelled enough by God's love to give their lives to share the good news.

do we forget the price that was paid at Calvary and blood dat was shed so that we may have the faith.

can we sit comfortably on the pews only? can our hearts remain silent?

i wanna b rich

2007-07-22T23:06:00.000+08:00

knock

i rem there was once i asked a crush, "Why do u want so much money?"

the impression my crush had on me probably was crushed also because he irritatedly asked, "What do u mean by that? Y not?"

somehow being rich was never topmost on my agenda. i also think dat money only has value when u spend it. So amassing papers with faces and buildings has never been my top priority. this has been further compounded by the obnoxious snobs i've encountered lately.

recently, there were 2 well-primmed women sitting at the table adjacent to mine. A teenage waitress was about to take orders when one asked if she spoke English. After failing to obtain an affirmative, she rudely sent her away and asked for another staff who could speak English when her friend could understand and speak Mandarin. The poor dismissed waitress was left perplexed and possibly with a major bruise on her heart.

Later, one of the women was served a glass of freshly squeezed orange juice. She slurped up every drop of it then complained to the manager about the volume of juice, demanding that S$7.00 worthed of orange juice should take up more than a mouthful's consumption. The manager politely explained that each glass was routinely filled with the amount yielded by one orange. The customer grudgingly accepted the explanation and continued grumbling. Subsequently when a waitress asked if she could clear the glass that held the juice, the diner said that she wants to polish off the ice in the glass.

I WAS APPALLED! Why are these people who spend thousands of dollars on handbags n branded goods making such a big fuss about orange juices???? And does having too much money numb their sensitivity towards others' feelings? Incidents like these cause me to think that financial status is inversely proportional to graciousness.

Thank God He changed my views this afternoon when I went for the medical mission team meeting. Apparently, Korean businessmen in other parts of the world, organise medical missions to their factories overseas so that their employees have a chance to listen to the gospel. They allow their employees time off to be at the makeshift clinics and even provide for the mission teams who are serving. It reminds me of the early churches that shared their finances and freely gave their belongings so that others may go in peace to preach Christ.

I pray that God make me rich if I may also be part of this movement.

Well, monetary richness aside. Today I experience God working even in tough circumstances. One of my co-worker delivered yesterday to a baby with cleft palate. The woman had a rude shock since an earlier fetal anomaly scan did not reveal this. This confirms that God disposes still.

By His grace, shared about my beliefs as I reminded her that God has perfect plans for everyone. Even for her baby who might be termed by man as having a defect. But God used it so He might be glorified. She comforted herself by reminding that this life is God's gift to her. although the God she proclaims is not mine. I thank God for her demonstration of being thankful in all circumstances as well as the opportunity to share with her that my God is one who has perfect plans for all of us.

The hands dat flung stars into space. Would He not have perfect and beautiful plans for our lives? How can dat be?

Tsusie! For u!

2007-07-22T21:52:00.000+08:00

Tsu tsu tsu...

promised Tsusie dat i'll dedicate an entry to him yesterday but was so bushed so gotta make up for it today.

we were on the way back from town on the cab n arguing about God the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Tsu says they'r the same. i said no. coz i think they've different roles. we havent gotten down to explaining our stands... den Tsusie turned to the cab-driver n asked, "What do u think, uncle?"

*10 secs of silence*

the uncle totally ignored us. fwahahahaahahaha!!!!

but still, give it up for Tsusie! i totally respect him for trying to engage dat Christian driver.

despite all these yrs of growing abroad n having to adapt to numerous changes living in countries where other gods prevail. this bro has grown to be a God-fearing guy who's serious about his relationship with God. hahahaa... i know i've never said this... but i'm super duper grateful dat i got to know him better... He always spurs me on n the others in the family...

so so so thankful to God dat i can get to know the likes of Tsusie, Mandy they all... reminder of God's faithfulness n works.

Press on, children of God. run and complete the race to claim the prize!

Heart of Flesh

2007-07-21T10:27:00.000+08:00

26 I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you;
I will remove from you your heart of stone
and give you a heart of flesh.
27 And I will put my Spirit in you
and move you to follow my decrees
and be careful to keep my laws.
Ezekiel 36:26-27

This i ask.

emo

2007-07-17T22:51:00.000+08:00

exasperated.

encounter some emo ppl. kinda pissed.

coz i realise emo ppl r so not coz they think too much. but coz they'r self-centred n keep dwelling on themselves only. when they start thinking bout the needs of others, den all the emo-ing comes to a stop. n they'd realise all the emo is a pile of crap.

instead of wasting time emo-ing bout things dat wont make a difference to the world. might as well do something productive like help the uncle carrying cardboard boxes. or pick up some trash on the streets.

yeap. i've moved on. let's do. n cut the emo crap!

honking honk honk

2007-07-16T21:42:00.000+08:00

honking!

kekeke... finally settled my budgie accomodation in hk. gosh... so few leave left. but really excited bout upcoming trip. settled all the minute stuffs... gotta start mugging 4SL!

kakaka!!! exciting. first time trodding ard on my own. keee. kinda scary though.

the people i love

2007-07-12T23:31:00.000+08:00

Hyun-Min Oppa - Man of God! He sings really well!!! Oppa>> Get married must must must invite okie?

I love them!

Sights & Sounds in Busan

2007-07-12T19:04:00.000+08:00

kimchi-ed.

C'mon! Korea is so much more den Kimchi alrite. anyway... our first nite at the conference. opening nite worship with ppl all over the world greeting one another. one sticker for each friend made... God gathered people who love Him from all over the world. exciting. I was so thankful for the ability to speak English and Mandarin. it really allows us to reach out to many.

dventure near jangsan subway station in Busan. rice cake with pepper . n korean-style "satay celop". loads of soy products. grab a pack from th

grocery store at cineleisure! they have most stuffs u can find in korea.
Kimchi galore at the Jalgachi market.

krispy kreme n shopping land 1! Gukje Market!

Fire!

2007-07-11T10:41:00.001+08:00

Burn. burning with love for GOD.

thanks to these ppl who reflects God's goodness, I see God's glory.

Shall add on more photos later...

=))))

i miss my tooties!

hahaha

chocolate

2007-06-25T22:47:00.000+08:00

chocolated.

after thinking long n hard for 5mins. i decided to get a 3G phone coz the CM co-ordinator emailed from busan to say dat 3G phones can be used there.

while settling the admin at the singtel counter... i asked the sales cust service officer n he asked me which part of korea i was gg to... n he told me dat 3G is only useable in seoul. harrows?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!

n i went home feeling ultra bruised. especially while staring at the "made in korea" label. thanks Q horz.

good thing i din get shine kiez. i think i must b getting more mature... coz i've gotten 2 cheap phones in a row. n i'm already contemplating terminating my 3-hour old line... wondering if singtel would ban me from signing up for lines in future. but it's not my faulta deh. phone w/o line =$568... with line =$98+termination($250) can someone see it's about $200 cheaper?

aiyahz. let's c how lahz.

n josh good lahz. buy krispy kreme n never share. now i've another reason to go hk.

thinking of learning how to draw but paiseh to go for adult's drawing classes... thinking of gg for kids ones... hahahaa... see if marc wants to go den i tag along... fwahahaa... i'm insane. rainz. my fave yellowbrolly at work. sianz.

would korea change my life?

fllyyy

2007-06-24T20:36:00.001+08:00

fly... soon.

haa... unbelievable but i've began to pack for busan. never done it this fast b4...

spent fri evening with CY n PPK... hahahaa... i true blue singaporean... use acronyms like nobody's biz. went to arcade... n i realise my motor skills really bad manz! for the only one who has a valid driving license... my driving sux lahz. well... i know. proven. but my basketballing skills not too bad. i'm gonna buy PS games to prac playing games when i get back. shoots man! i can't believe i'm this bad.

n i got wet with oil from a dripping duck... hahahaa... dumbz. kept hugging the naked duck n said it felt warm n alive. stoopie mez!!! but must thank CY for it lah... my dinner for 3 nights!! wahahaha... a duck can sure go a long way!

fabtastic 4 was sux! the scene in "china" was total crap. they obviously did do enuff research. embarrassing man. anyhowz... feels so good to spend time playing with the same ppl i played with when i was younger... hahahaa... we'r gonna play together alot more yeaz?

spent a few hours today in library reading a wide range of journals. i think i really would hv made a better humanities student... totally relished the time... read some articles on cultures n religions.... read on sociology... loved it. so peaceful... n hear God speak also even though i din manage to go church. haa... the plus pt of having an omnipresent God. thank God for being who He is... really.

praying for my patients... esp those with multiple pregs... really hard on them n their premature babies... fight on, babies!

feasted

2007-06-21T00:03:00.000+08:00

feasted.

hawker feasted. *burp* actually i cant stand the sound of burping. makes me nauseous. den again... many things do make me nauseous.

got a new blogdress. but lazy to get started there. shd i ask my bro 2 get it done? hmm...

shall shift when i reach the 300 posts mark.

i realise i like jeffrey archer. n i realise i might hv finished reading all of maeve binchy's books. or at least those orchard library offers...

i realise i really like mandy & randy too. gosh.

gonna b MIA for so long... congrats guys! 3 wks of peace. heh. busan. hm. bins bins bins.

pp pp pp pp pp pp pp

books books books

2007-06-10T18:28:00.000+08:00

read.

ouch. left under eye hurts so much. ouch. hope it goes away.

haa!!! finished 2 books over this wkend.

freakonomics & past secrets by cathy kelly... recommended by por por... but i still prefer maeve binchy to kelly... so tempted to head to library now.

recently started running on treadmill again. feels so good! the rush of running. thrilling!!!! gotta start heading out to lakeside n cheenese garden one again!!!

2 more books to devour... hahaha... mayb i shd try finishing high heels tonight. n perhaps shop for more books to bring to Busan... hhhmmm... let me see... less den 3 wks to the trip. dunno wat to expect. not exactly excited... suddenly feel more like heading to lyon with SC instead... but well... too late. mayb i really could do with the refreshing at Busan afterall...

tsusie coming back n serene too!!! looking forward!!!! thinking of doing a new blog site... wanna close this part of life and begin another.

cremation of a chicken

2007-06-03T17:23:00.001+08:00

cremated.

i'm so ashamed of my actions.

i cremated a chicken in my kitchen. a kampong chicken. utterly disgusted.

it's been a long time since i last had my very own chicken soup. tst!

n the house now smells like a BBQ pit. thanks mindy. thanks.

boredom is evil...

2007-05-23T22:28:00.000+08:00

shrekking

i'm so bored i'm wearing a shrekkie hairband n getting emoticons from my bro via msn. tst!

i want tigger emoticons!

shoots!

boredom is evil.

blues skies seem 2 b approaching but grey clouds still loom. uurggh. go away go away go away...

cherishing precious ones

2007-05-21T19:02:00.000+08:00

cherish.

when we fix our eyes only on wat we want, we become blind to what we already hv.

sorry. so sorry.

eagles

2007-05-14T22:57:00.001+08:00

soar...

spotted eagles 2 sundays in a row. i believe He has something to tell me...

all i want is YOU

2007-05-12T23:08:00.000+08:00

knock

leisurely saturday. got food for poddie. kakaka!

spent the later part of noon with por por kay n sy... slow lazy noon... good time of bitching. wahahaha... the things the ppl in service line get... man. absurdly ridiculously hilarious in the darkest sense of humour. tried on shades n laughed like crazy at one another... hahaha... it's fun to let loose. wahahaha... i think i hv too much fun too often.

den met mandy and huiling in the evening... parked at kino long enuff not 2 b chased out. ponder dong long dong hard on whether to get a book. mandy so weird. bought a book bout puking ppl... whaahaha... n huiling wanted a book on freaks. n they say i read weird things. look who's weird?

n i got my hokkaidoodeedah ice-cream! fwahahahahaahahahahaha!!!!! best way to start off dinner.... n got some ppl staring for walking into rest with an ice-cream cone. dongz... nvr say cannot bring outside food watz. plus make me wait 1 hrsssss for table i pengsan how? so must makan iceeee-creammo yea... shoots. crapping again...

got some soupless little draggie paoz n laughed so much dat the neighbouring customers stood up from their booth seats to bio us. harrrowzzz... we entertainment kiez. anyway, tell us u want us to shuddup lahz. how i know wat u thinking when u use eye power?

hahahaa... anywayz... doodeedah lahz. hahaha... thanks honies, for making this sat so laughuzzy!

feeding time

2007-05-10T23:30:00.000+08:00

feed.

feeding time for poddie but HMV is so short on its music selection can?!?!?! their staff gave me a duh loook when i looked for a couple of CDs!!!! not my fault dat u all dun listen to everything kiezzz... but dun look at me like i'm an idiot dong!

n i cant find an alarm clock. y is it so tough to find something i like dehz. those i like. kaaa!

got a neighbour who's walking my darling russie. hahahha... so nice...

2007-05-08T23:39:00.000+08:00

Truth simply fumbles through mutated delightful reality

blushing

2007-05-07T18:26:00.000+08:00

*blush*

i've been blushing since yesternoon from inappropriate exposure to the sun.

ultravioleted.

i wonder which degree of burns i got.

n i got muscle-ache from either throwing water bombs or from washing doughy pails.

i really love all of u! havent laughed so hard n so much for so long!!! can't wait for dec mission trip.

sometimes u all break my heart. but worth it all! i love u all! u! u! u!

p/s: thanks for always being there. haa... or is it here?

the little prince & the flower

2007-05-01T13:35:00.000+08:00

The little prince also pulled up, with a certain sense of dejection, the last little shoots of the baobabs. He believed that he would never want to return. But on this last morning all these familiar tasks seemed very precious to him. And when he watered the flower for the last time, and prepared to place her under the shelter of her glass globe, he realised that he was very close to tears.

"Goodbye," he said to the flower.

But she made no answer.

"Goodbye," he said again.

The flower coughed. But it was not because she had a cold.

"I have been silly," she said to him, at last. "I ask your forgiveness. Try to be happy..."

He was surprised by this absence of reproaches. He stood there all bewildered, the glass globe held arrested in mid-air. He did not understand this quiet sweetness.

"Of course I love you," the flower said to him. "It is my fault that you have not known it all the while. That is of no importance. But you-- you have been just as foolish as I. Try to be happy... let the glass globe be. I don't want it any more."

"But the wind--" "My cold is not so bad as all that... the cool night air will do me good. I am a flower."

"But the animals--"

"Well, I must endure the presence of two or three caterpillars if I wish to become acquainted with the butterflies. It seems that they are very beautiful. And if not the butterflies-- and the caterpillars-- who will call upon me? You will be far away... as for the large animals-- I am not at all afraid of any of them. I have my claws."

And, naively, she showed her four thorns. Then she added: "Don't linger like this. You have decided to go away. Now go!"

picturesque

2007-04-30T11:48:00.000+08:00

breathe...

was chilling at pacific coffee at vivo on sunday evening... after Z got her crepe fix. it was so beautiful dat it makes beautiful sound understated. the setting sun was blocked by the PSA machinery... nevertheless, the soft orange glow was swiped across the dull blue sky... the water looked clear n soothing... there were children blowing bubbles and running around on the plank-laid platform... there was a couple on a swing bench who looked completely blissful and at ease... cable cars were cruising on the other side of sky... there were some anime fans with their life-like dolls bz snapping shots of the lifeless yandaos. gagagaa... i was writing notes to some beloveds. chillz. spending loads of time chilling these days. very in touch with God n myself. feels good. very good.

had ultimately fiery spicy wantan mee @ Eng ko mee at dunman road. love the chill enormous time... n i got the very last helping! thank God. otherwise i'd bang my head against a plate of chicken chop since i spend like 10 bucks on cab fees to rush down from Nootan's wedding... the noodles were so spicy, i felt like my ears were blocked for a few minutes... n i had to drink soya bean milk to extinguish the burning sensation... teared uncontrollably as well. kakaka, the things we do... like the ambience of the hawker ctr... the hawkers were all so friendly, warm n helpful... dongz. i wanna move back to the east... miss still road.

attended the first muslim-indian wedding ever of my own fren. felt so super duper ultra lost. no table to sit at for the muslim meal... *boohoooooohoooooo*** had only indian veg... n had to go for wantan mee! but it's okie... sampled this really yummy fish at the same time... n breathe the air of hometown. kaa! extra!

chill, burn n bum

2007-04-23T00:11:00.000+08:00

chill...

my firsto hammock riddo!!!! kakaka... rockabye minzzyyy...

wat do u call someone who lies everywhere... a lier... fwahahaa... daadaadaa...

monkie!!!! tatatata!!!!

i love my sista!!!!

monkie + coconut trees = perfect combo!!!

YO SISTA!!!!

wahahahaa... did the craziest thing yesterday. went to bintan on half an impulse with no prior plans... the indonesians at the immigrations were so helpful. offered help when they saw my "DUH!" look... helped me get a brochure on batam ferry schedule and ran out to pass it to me. i thot the resort was within walking distance... wanted to walk 2 the resorts. but thankfully, boarded the hotel transfer bus on the spur of the moment n landed a nirwana garden wich is exactly where i needed to be!!!!

spent time jux strolling down the beaches n leaving some imprints on the logs... wahahaha... i've got this weird habit of lying on places to take photos... kakakaka!!! wanted to trespass n go to banyan tree but couldnt... tst!!!!

took many lame photos den chill chill n chill somemore... mayang sari looks rather cool n it's so near the beach. the blue waters n even bluer skies were so beautiful... totally relaxed... hahahaa... love these impromptu moments. hhhmm... where next?

i love God, He loves me more...

2007-04-22T01:05:00.000+08:00

bintaned n snapped!!!!

i love God; He loves me more.

preview to my foto album at bintan.

donuted

2007-04-17T22:43:00.000+08:00

donut.

my colleague whom i see like few times a yr queued for 4 hours for donuts for me.

i wanna cry...

really am touched. so very touched. i thank God for putting so many wonderful ppl in my life!

been very touched by frenz lately. thanks pals. really, thanks!

i believe

2007-04-16T23:40:00.000+08:00

knock...

i believe because He listens when i call.

He answers when i ask though only at His time.

i believe because i'm willing to obey. i try. i fail. but i still believe.

He is real. i haven't been shown how He is not. coz all have shown that it is true.

GOD, I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

it's so hard but i still do!!!! Thanks!!!!!! for sending ppl to confirm so...

ahhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i miss spending time with u all!!!

241 million?

2007-04-13T00:25:00.000+08:00

dong!

i help those who would benefit from PM's generosity thank him. but hor, last i heard... the bulk of the majority are not benefitting alot from the pay raise. u sure were emotional when u stood by the decision u made... i somewhat see dat u feel dat the ppl dun love u enuff to see dat u deserve such an increment.

dongz! thing is... if u want us to feel like u really love us and the country den shdnt money not b an issue? we keep harping on the imptance of the lure of the finances but shdnt the greatest rewards b of intrinsic value? r we telling everyone dat we need da money to convince us dat we'r passionate about something? so if i get better returns elsewhere, i shall always look towards dat cash-ier pasture n not do something dat i feel called to? is money gonna b our primary motivation?

n the truth is... those who can sit n debate issues in the house probably dun need dat bit of money for a better life. those who would truly benefit from a 33% pay raise are those who sit behind the counter until 5pm++++ and rush to the student centre to pick up his/her child(ren) or need time off from work to seek fertility treatment. this 33% helps make sure they can send their children for the enrichment classes of their choice n gives them an opportunity to sit on a plane and head for a family holiday.

they are the ones who make sure dat ur ideas penned on paper are more den mere blabber. they're the ones who bear the brunt of the crap from the public when u make decisions dat r supposed to benefit the nation... when u debate about policies dat'r gonna be made in the education system... the teachers sit in on numerous meetings n training seminars to make sure dat wat was said would be executed in the classrooms. u spend hours in a meeting room to brainstorm n pick on ideas. the ones who put them into practice gets the most crap but get the least monetary appreciation. dadah!!!! welcome to the economics of pay increment allocation.

banned!

2007-04-11T08:42:00.000+08:00

banned.

zahari's 17 yrs. i've seen the singapore rebel. if u ask me. protrayal was completely biased. i'm skeptical bout martyn see's works.

den again, how bout freedom of expression & freedom to decide wat u wanna believe.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iEMXaTktUfA

have things changed all these years?

free for conclusion.

saliva splash splash splash

2007-04-11T08:08:00.000+08:00

knock...

mandy is so gonna regret this... asking me to update. bout me, well, playing way too hard. dat's all dat's needed to b said. but i do hv alot to say bout the pay increment dat the civil service is getting.

well... let's start off this way. n jux in case u'r interested in reading this really bad, stare...

was at the ICA to collect my passport on mon. reached at bout 4.35pm and was expecting not to be able to get a Q no. coz the cut-off time was 4.30pm. n i firmly believed i wouldnt be admitted into the building at all knowing how efficient our CS is... they would abide so strictly to the time n cause me to make an additional trip. but i decided to have a little faith n made my way into the building. there was a huge exodus of ppl from the building. nevertheless, went to the 2nd level n holA! i still could get a Q no. and collect my passport though i was late!!!! *clap clap clap* i was like the 174th in the Q but it beats having to make another trip for my dear passport. surprisingly the Q was cleared in a mere hour n the ICA officer though not in a chatty mood, didnt slash my pretty pic on my passport!!! let me prove how pretty the pic is!!! wahahahaa

okie... point proven... these ppl on the grd really work hard and beyond hours. and they've to adhere by the strict standards dat the bosses from the top have demanded of them. but guess wat? their pay increment margin would definitely fall within the low range. considering their low initial pay anyway, well... u can imagine how puny the increment is. on the other hand, our far-from-mediocre ministers and executive management ppl who use their most prized possession to talk their way into a pay raise, r getting like wat!?!?! 33% increase! coupled with the original fat pay amt... man. can u calculate wat a huge portion of the S$241 million it accounts for?!?!?!?

6 millions of the sum is to pay for gingko nuts and medical treatment for the semi-retired folks. mayb shd buy muzzles so wont say wrong things also.

singapore is really evolving into a very interesting place. 30k for peanuts and now, servants get pay exorbitant increment. and did u watch snippets of the parliment? man... it's a joke! the ppl who are getting the pay increment debate bout it themselves. siaoz! dun they need an appraisal? shouldnt the bosses propose the increment and approve it? since when did servants propose and enforce their own pay raise? now, it feels so good to have 7% GST... so we can hv an efficient n well-paid govt to think of more ways to make singapore a better place to live in.

well, u can use these brains to attract more foreign talents coz in a single mth, i've encountered at least 2 families who r migrating n u know wat? i'm fishing out options too! i'm jux not good enuff for singapura.

oh btw, yes, IVF patients dun need more monetary subsidies. they need workplace support to get leave off from work for treatment. they need to not have to worry about rushing back to work so their bosses wouldn't sack them for missing work... they need to focus on completing their families. y dun u all start debating about more impt issues? n our youths need to know dat abortions might cause damage to their wombs n cause sub/infertility in future... n y dun u jux forget bout justifying the pay raise and think instead of how to convince the ppl to start families early n oh ya, to continue living here.

or u can issue more student passes so we can have english students who can't fill up forms but can increase our population. now i know y ICA so busy. TST!

ya! u'r seeing wat i am seeing!

puke

2007-04-01T21:45:00.000+08:00

puke

u know u can say friends forever when...

u've been through seasons of celebrations and hurts together
u've bickered yet made up again n again
u can cry with one another
u can laugh at one another
u can be who u really are
u can puke on them n they'd still carry u home
u can count on them to wipe tears, mucus n puke
u can hug them when it's cold
u can count on them to provide bed n brekkie
u say thank u, n they say, wat'r friends 4...

2A, friends forever!

great expectations

2007-03-23T16:59:00.000+08:00

knock

holing in office... waiting for WCY! dunno how long she'll make me wait this time. i've got owen meany with me. but well... the time not rite yet. ahhh... miss being wrapped by the armchair at pac coffee.

mayb settle with bloodbroscafe den... if... if... i dun while away enuff time.

when i'm holed up in office waiting for something to happen, the ramblings start.

this time i wanna talk bout expectations. someone pissed me off big time with great expectations. was thinking... do we deserve to expect something? r there ppl who deserve to expect more den others? wat gives ppl the rite to expect anything especially when they've contributed nothing n cannot been depended on to fulfil expectations. den i rem... GRACE. dun we all not deserve nothing.

okiez, lesson learnt.

best gift

2007-03-21T21:07:00.000+08:00

knock.

papa called to ask whether i want haagen daz or ben & jerry's. actually more like mummy asking him to ask. well, anyway, parents have the best gifts for their children. wat more our heavenly Father.

now u know y it's so hard to settle for less den best?

i love mandy!

2007-03-20T21:21:00.000+08:00

knock.

jux to let mandy know i love her!

thanks for being God's love to me!

pangseh again... deeeddddddiaozzzzzzzzz

hahahahaa...

oh ya... must thank CY for bringing me pigeon from hk. one only. super iaoz! but where's my HT$^^#$$%^$%?!?!??! hahahaha

2007-03-18T22:32:00.000+08:00

WOOF. nyahhahaha. : D

2007-03-15T23:45:00.000+08:00

knock.

the plants under the stairs grew taller but limp... think it's a creeper so needed support. the one amongst the grass was still growing well. not very much taller but doing very well despite all the competition.

got a massage voucher. ahhhhh!!! must find time to go. super worked. need a breaaaakkk... korean!! coming me ahhh!!! gosh. still a long way...

watched 3 movies this wk already... 300 was good in the cinematic sense. iwo jima was fantastic in all senses... though CY can never understand y i like war movies. but this is so much more human stories den anything. like band of bros. aiyah. i like lah kiez... even though u say i not gal. who cares bout wat u say? freak lah! fight with me over umbrella along orchard rd. harrow! super bo seh. spoilt imaagee big time kiez.

i love paris, je t'aime... absolutely delightful to watch. absurdly hilarious for some of the cuts. love it love it love it. fabulous way to chill on wed. beats queuing... though the woman who laughed at everything was kinda a spoiler. she'll fit a subaru perfectly.

speaking of cars. i really like the mitshibishi i. cutez!

i'm blabbering again coz the most impt things r always left unsaid.

rindu

2007-03-13T16:39:00.000+08:00

selamat ulang tahun, mama.

merindumu!

chosen to bear fruit

2007-03-11T16:37:00.000+08:00

16You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit—fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. 17This is my command: Love each other.

John 15:16-17

Chosen to bear fruit.

Risk

2007-03-07T00:26:00.001+08:00

To laugh is to risk appearing the fool
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental
To reach out to others is to risk involvement
To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self
To place your ideas, your dreams before a crowd is to risk their loss
To love is to risk not being loved in return
To live is to risk dying
To hope is to risk despair
To try is to risk failure
But risks must be taken,
because the largest hazard in life is to do nothing.
He may avoid suffering and sorrow,
but he cannot learn, feel, change, grow, love, live.
Chained by his attitudes, he is a slave.,
he forfeited his freedom.
Only the person who risks can be free.
-Author unknown-

i've appeared as a fool.
i get sentimental.
i get involved.
i get exposed.
i've lost.
i've been loved.
i know i'd die.
i've felt despair.
i've failed.
sometimes i do nothing.
i have more than nothing.
i've been taught.
i've felt.
i've changed.
i've grew.
i love.
i live.
i'm a slave to God.
i'm free.

pak choys gave up on me today. but the plants under the stairs grew taller n there were moremoremoremore leaves to shield the plants from the rain. the one most exposed to the beatings of the weather is still flourishing.

Growing!

2007-03-04T21:41:00.000+08:00

knock!!!

pay choys grew!!!!!!! so happie!!!!

n saw some of the plants growing very well in church too. could see the remnants of some of the dead plants but it doesnt matter because there were still a few thriving. this is the joy of the sower. though many more die but as one as one bore fruit, it is sufficient n u'd never experience the same joy if u'd never taken the time to first plant the seed.

jux hope dat God continue to make them grow... hahaha... coz we totally leave it to Him. looking forward to finally seeing wat plants they actually r!

realised i've got alot more seeds at home. wahahhaa... let's see!!!

I hear YOU

2007-03-04T16:53:00.000+08:00

knock.

spent the first time ever praying n praying only n listening to Him for a full hour for the prayer chain on wed nite. amazing time. the fullness of the joy when obeying Him.... the beauty of communion with God.

i still fail alot all the time.

i still find it hard to love many ppl.

i still forget Him sometimes, many times.

i still have 101 distractions around me.

but it's ok... i still wanna try hard because He first loved me n He chose me, i didnt choose Him. went for the servant leadership seminar yesterday noon. Rev Duke Lueking shared alot n touched my heart very deeply... when he reminded me dat God chose me despite my shortcomings n numerous flaws. sometimes i try too hard to meet up to the standards of ppl ard me. their standards shd mean nothing but i place too much emphasis on them n miss meeting God instead...

so wat i wanna say is... u can go ahead n be a preacher in your ivory tower. i will try very hard not to b a preacher in the ivory tower. i will try to focus on eyes on You. i will seek You to know wat Your heart is. I will do all things in Your strength n love. Your love sustains me... i will love You the way You love me. Be my everything...

YUM!!!!!!

2007-02-28T22:24:00.000+08:00

knock.

finally got my choco craving satisfied... fwahahahahaa... my pa drove us to ms for chocofty. dongz. the french chef looked so intimidating dat his staff 4got 2 charge me for a whole cake. hahaha... butz. mustz hvz integritee so i called back n they'r gonna check. n maybz they wanz to give me 2 kgs of their chocolate tart coz it tastes so goodz.

dat aside. i asked my pa yz hez wantz to hv children. den he repliz dat he wanz to b a servant. gosh. so nice of himz. hahahahhaa...

man. if i explode now. itz gonaz bez alot of chocz n chicken rice did i everz sayz boon tong keez fantastiz? it really is smashing. goshz so goodz. so goodz... ahhz. i'm gonna b happiez for the whole wkz. fwahz.

if u'r happy n u know itz, say CHOCOLATE! the last time i cooed, i was unhappy for a long whilez. geeepz...

n i no need seez mukherjeez alreadyzzz... fwahahahaazzzzzz.... CHOCOLATE CHOCOLATE CHOCOLATE!!!

random

2007-02-28T16:00:00.000+08:00

waiting to see murkhejee...

tmr is march...

shd i start driving again...

cancel line?

KE820?

will pak choy grow?

chocolate?

H77665873

discoveries!

2007-02-25T22:55:00.000+08:00

knock.

had a very good saturday. went to the library and found 2 good books in prep for cell... i hope i'd do justice to the good content n bring it across clearly n succintly.

finally visited mint. so fun to see toys of different era. shame dat we can't touch it though. saw the chinese section youth n their pastor 2. so hip lah. they also visited the museum.

found another interesting spot after mint too.... found this very hidden store (acutally...) with their unique collection of clothes... loved a belt but was way too pricey. urrggghhhh... got a bag though. totally cool! one of a kind only. they got a new fan in me man!!!!!! so cool. they use only recycled materials n their designs r sooo thotful. way cooler den crumpler n timbuktu (fwah! 4got spelling)...

chk out their site. absolute coolness.

http://www.freitag.ch/

n went to pac coffee to chill n get some work done. great place to chill. was so so so quiet on a sat nite. mayb coz every1 was crowding n watching chingay. saw reflections of some fireworks at marina sq later. always manage to spot fireworks with hz. haa... pac coff gonna b my fave emo n chill spot. can stalk me there. wahahaha... open invitation for stalker.

n had overdose of dinner by having chickie rice after beef noodles. couldnt help it. there was this ultra vintage coffeeshop at purvis st. food wasnt fantastic but it was so old sch n 60's. n the cashier ah peh looked so cool behind his counter. love places like this. make me feel like i was out of our urban jungle.

lost my ericsson today. quite a shame coz it's my second preferred phone. n motorola rzr red seems 2 b sold out. there's no phone i wanna get lorz. sianz. to the person who snitched my ericsson>>>>>>>>>> ooi! so old also want?!?!?!?!? duhz!

i'm alive.

2007-02-18T22:06:00.000+08:00

jux 2 let ppl i care know i'm still alive...

2007-02-12T20:21:00.000+08:00

dear mama.

i am reallllll sick of doing work already. so here's another picture from my collection of cute animals in Adelaide.

TADAAA. behold, the furry kangaroo joey. took this picture in a small wildlife sanctuary beside this.

the world's largest rocking horse. standing 18.3m tall, it's WOAH colossal! hahaha.

hooookay i'm done here. gonna get back to doing work. can't wait for chinese new year to come! then yan will be down and there'll be holidays and plenty of fun. : D love you so, mama!

YOU complete me.

2007-02-12T17:37:00.000+08:00

YOU, only YOU, complete me.

YOU're everything to me.

9"As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. 10If you obey my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have obeyed my Father's commands and remain in his love. 11I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete.

John 15:9-11

coo coo coo

2007-02-08T15:04:00.001+08:00

knock

when u'r happy n u know it, cooooooooooooooooooooo

cooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Spiritual Lust

2007-02-07T07:11:00.000+08:00

Lust means "i must have it at once". Spiritual lust causes me to demand an answer from God, instead of seeking God Himself who gives the answer.

My Utmost for His Highest, Oswald Chambers

the end of lamentations marks the beginning of action

2007-02-06T15:13:00.000+08:00

knock.

was reading the news jux now. so much coverage on the jakarta flood. n one thing caught my eyes... read dat the indo side was pointing finger at one another so someone would bear the brunt of the flood. with all the time spent blaming, no wonder nothing much is done. they keep relying on the foreign aids coming in n not do something permanent to solve their prbs... no wonder 300k++++ ppl r still suffering. if they would spend the time blaming n lamenting to do some serious thinking bout solving the countless prbs dat tumble onto their land, den their countrymen would b living better lives.

hyper from milk & caffeine so blabbering... shoots. so deezee now. uurggghhh

Asean Football CHAMPIONS!!!!!!

2007-02-04T23:48:00.000+08:00

GOAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Singapore's the champion!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

watched the match off n on coz was at KS's place... was switching between the soccer n superstar!!!!!!!!!!! but thank God, caught the best moments in time. amri's goal was superb n skilful and well-executed. n so glad our players kept their cool n gave their best though their best was still lacking but still. well-fought match n well done lions!!!!!!!!!!!!! ROAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! man, really wish i could b there 2 scream my lungs out to cheer the lion n give the blatantly biased referee was huge piece of my head literally. since headbutt isnt offensive in his sight.

i hope the referee get some serious disciplinary action for his match-destruction when he chose to allow the thais to get away with so many of their underhanded playing. he shd really do some soul-searching... way too too too blatant. gave yellow card to lionel lewis for time-wasting?!?!?!?! when hello, which team had players cringing in pain on the field after a mere gentle knock with minutes ticking away... n hello!!!!!! yellow card to player on the bench? u siaoz ah?

hello, engkau gila?!?!?!?!?!??!

anywayz, we'r the champions!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fwahahahahaha

MSN-free for a wk

2007-02-04T18:16:00.000+08:00

knock.

kenton lee doesnt believe i can wean off msn messenger for a wk. so well. i'm gonna prove it.

well, also to spend more time with God. though i'm gonna so miss talking to so many of u.

shoots. cant rem wat the wager is though.

dongz.

new love

2007-02-02T23:03:00.000+08:00

knock...

new love in my life.

mae.

"The Sun And The Moon
"Wasted time.
I cannot say that I was ready for this.
But when worlds collide,
and all that I have is all that I want.
The words seem to flow and the thoughts they keep running.
And all that I have is yours.
All that I am is yours.
Ohh...
Painted skies.
I've seen so many that cannot compare
to your ocean eyes.
The pictures you took that cover your room,
and it was just like the sunbut more like the moon.
A light that can reach it all.
So now I'm branded for taking the fall.
Ohh...
So when you say forever,
can't you see you've already captured me.

so so so so so so so tired lately.

Roar Lions Roar, not boo

2007-02-01T00:46:00.000+08:00

knock!

started the day very badly. terribly upsetty stomach. stuck in the loo and was so late for work. uurgghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

the rest of the day was alrite... decided to finally go collect my miniSD card at adelphi... after getting my new ipod holder. well, not my dream holder but still... b4 my dream becomes reality. we make do with it lah. the dream one gotta wait for my sewing machine to finally become a reality first.

went to raffles city to chk out the queue at donut factory. keep hearing bout it but nvr seen it happen. wow lao, singaporeans really darnz cho bo can?!?!?!?!?!? at like 3 plus 4pm, there were like at least 30 ppl in the queue. siaoz. total waste of time for roti with lobang can?!?!?!?! siaoz. ppl actually queue 2-3hrs for them?!?!?!?!? hello!!!! no better way to spend time meh?!?!?!?!?

i got my burgundy beef pie for piper's instead. yummilicious can?!?!?!?!?!? wooohoooooooo... love it love it love it lah! realised they thinned out the filo n piled up on the beefy. man! so good. though i did say i'm cutting off my red meat but still, worthed it for burgundy beef. *drooolzzz*

had to rush home to meet pa... was waiting for the bus for the longest time at my fave nuah spot. i dunno y... but i love dat bus-stop. love it love it love it.

they insisted the red top i bought for the nite's match was pink. watever! i say red can liaoz. was so late when we reached the stadium. jux when they started singing the national anthem. man. been a long time since i last uttered MAJULAH SINGAPURA!!!! the ambience was superb. never felt so nationalistic for the longest time. pity the sea of red wasnt red enuff. thank God planted ourselves somewhere near the field. havent watched football in stadium for eonsS!!! felt so good. though it was completely weird w/o the commentating. n PA was down in first half. so many yellow cards served but dunno to whom?

had loads fun watching n listening to the other spectators. we'r so linguistically "talented"... had live commentary in a smattering of mandarin, english, hokkien, malay. more of the latter lang was used for swearing though. n it was so ironical to listen to them complain dat referee was biased when their commentary was so stilted in the first place. we really tekan the opponents and referee real hard!!!! never heard so much foul lang in 2 hrs. never seen singaporeans more united.

here's one-half of the clappers who kena "scolded" by me for boo-ing n insulting. n boy, they were really obedient. shudded up when i said dun b rude when they reprimanded referee... oh ya, my folks posing in the backgrd. my ma in the toilet 3/4 of the time.

n there was a very patriotic angmoh with a singapore team jersey who was ultra enthu thr'out the match n made angmoh printed on his jersey. tis guy totally has no identity crisis! ho seh lah!!! SC said i shd hv a jersey dat says, i'm really chinese hor! true.

n of course, the high pt was when the thai team decided to boycott the game. hv u ever seen protesting singaporeans in the open? here they'r!

i dun blame the thais for acting the way they did. we've been extremely ungracious. spouted bad lang at them n referee from the beginning n kept raining middle fingers at them for no good reason. they were under tremendous pressure. but honestly, the refereeing was BAD!!!!! he was not making the best judgment most of the time.

while the thais and the officials blabberbubblefubble, we spoke with the kallang wave... whiiiissshhhh whooohhhhh whoooooossshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

n they finally conceded and "GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGOOOOOOOOOOOAAAAAALLL!!!!!"

never watched a more dramatic asian match... well, not as exciting as dat freaking headbutt... but to pause a game for so long.... every1 at the stadium was scratching their heads n wondering y the sudden dismissal from the pitch... hahahaa.. we decided to listen to radio broadcast to find out what happened. n we realise we dunno which frequency the news radio is on. woohooo!!!

anyway, while waiting for match 2 resume... do u know dat they hv prince landscapers coming in to fill up the pitch during halftime?! gosh. the things dat happen here.

well, when they finally agreed to play again. this is wat happened on the scoreboard.

steph's concentrating on the game while i'm trying to capture the best shot of our last major game in our national stadium... in a stadium with 55k ppl yet she looks so alone. love this pic.

bittersweet game. the thais obviously played better soccer but might hv been intimidated. if they din retaliate in a bad way, things might hv turned out better for them. such a shame. but i love the scene when they all gathered n moved to their supporters' side of the stadium to applaud them n thank them for the support. with their meagre side, they were really loud. i wish i could fly to bkk to support the lions.

was a shame when the thais chose to b wilful during a freekick. insisted dat the lions were too close a proximity. n the referee moved the ball further from the lions instead. joker lah!! one heck of a scene. i instinctly stood up n chanted red card. oops!!!!

we won but i thot the lions were really too arrogant n ungracious in the rougish way they played in the first half. n c'mon man! lions roar, they dun boo. sucked! to listen to u all criticize n point n condemn the thai players n referee at the wrong time. c'mon! the women r supposed to b the emotional n subjective folks. not the majority male spectators alrite...

anyway, glorious way to end the lifespan of the old national stadium. such a poignant moment. beautiful. way to end first mth of the yr. nice. our first family outing for the yr too. wishing so hard i can go bkk for the game. not a money prb but leave prb... uurggghhhh. i wanna watch world cup in the stadium too!!!

MindYoStep First Launch Jan 2007

2007-01-29T19:31:00.000+08:00

MindYoStep Pre-launch. For Sale only... email mindyostep@yahoo.com for purchase and enquiries.

First-come-first serve.

all hand-made. Only one pair in the entire world. truly limited. one of a kind.

Swing Girl Swing

First Bloom of Spring

Girl's Day Out

Mystic Night

Jaded Pearlites

Hail the Queen

Girlie Feist

Fluttery Summer

Dew on a Summer's Morning

Crystabelle

Blue Frost

no freedom!!!!!

2007-01-28T21:13:00.000+08:00

knock.

from my loveliest lovelier love!!! honey, love ya love ya love ya!!!

i love...

2007-01-28T18:44:00.000+08:00

knock!!!!!!!!!!!!!

piangz... i cant upload photos on my blog lah!!!!!

duhz!

how 2 show the world my loves?!?!?!?!

anywayz... mandy dear!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thanks so much for everything everything everything!!!!!!

uurrggghhhhhhhhh.. no fotos... how to let the pics do the talking?!?!!?!? sianz

anywayz... so disappointed today. only huiling turned up for cell. i thot we could change things for the better this yr. haiz. need lots more hard work.

no fotos. so sad lah!!! i'm gg to myspace liaoz lah.

i did it again?!?!?!?!?!?

2007-01-25T23:38:00.000+08:00

knock...

oops... sorry, got the wrong place...

wahahahaha... mandy u win lahz!!!!! blog for me. u bestest!!! wahahahaha

anyway, guess wat? i forgot my internet banking pin for the 2nd time... man... gotta ask for new password again! i give up man!

2007-01-25T17:12:00.000+08:00

Bwahahhaha. you haven't updated for so long! so i decided to update for you.

so cute right! the kookaburra that decided to visit us while we were eating dinner outside our cabin in aus. it seemed quite tame and we managed to get very close to it. ahahhahhaa. : D

hoookayy time for me to go do tuition homework! i have tuition again tonight and hahahha i have plenty to do before going there. see you on sunday mama! if you do see this before sunday. :DDDDDDD

new obsession

2007-01-17T00:08:00.000+08:00

knock...

got a new obsession... my plants. therapeutic. simpler. beautiful n flourish with love.

love is...

2007-01-13T20:14:00.000+08:00

knock...

everyday at my clinic... i see many patients spending thousands of dollars n poking themselves so dat they can fulfill their dreams of having their own children... when they're succeed, we spend another 12 weeks worrying and hoping that the pregnancies will stabilise... some of them quit their jobs to rest at home n protect the lives they carry... almost all continue to be pierced regularly to check on their hormones levels... they pop pills to try their very best to sustain the lives in them... den they spend the next 2 trimesters monitoring the growths of the lives inside of them... parents start fretting for their children the moment they learn of their existences... the worrying never stops...

4 weeks after public holidays... many ppl will start calling the clinic to ask if we perform abortions... i try very hard not to sound irritated.... yes, it is their freedom of choice. it is their lives... i've no control over it.... i dun wanna control their lives 2... it jux hurts a great deal... to know dat ppl make such choices. some ppl call n make comments like 'the last time...' it simply shows that they havent learnt their lesson... most sound sheepish. if there's nothing wrong. there's no need to sound so...

the love i know is supposed to b patient... not self-seeking... it protects. but the so-called love dat our world proclaims of today hardly echoes the same view. it emphasizes alot on the now, the feeling dat can come so strong and yet is so easily forgotten... the pleasure that is so fleeting yet delightful for dat short moment. i'm always told dat love is all bout the feeling and it can't be unexplained... if u dunno y u love, den wat bout it is worthed loving?

wat differentiates us from animals which go around mating for the sake of propagating? are we like the peacocks which attract mates with colourful and flamboyant appearances... or do we emit a smell dat draws attraction... are we not of a superior species... created in God's likeness... having the breath of God in us... who are given the authority to rule over n take care of God's creation because we have the intellect that God has given us... we'r supposed to have a mind to govern our bodies and cherish them...

i wonder what is still valuable these days... do we realise wat we'r losing when we choose to lose our minds as well...

i planted...

2007-01-12T00:17:00.000+08:00

knock...

6I planted the seed, Apollos watered it, but God made it grow. 7So neither he who plants nor he who waters is anything, but only God, who makes things grow. 8The man who plants and the
man who waters have one purpose, and each will be rewarded according to his own labor.

I Corinthians 3:6-8

was so wide awake at 12 midnite... decided to snap pics of my VW vans... the seeds i planted on sun hv sprouted... thot of this verse. how many seeds r we keeping dormant?

God's creation never fail to impress... how can we not believe in a God who creates? where did all this amazing things come from? only 2 seedlings so far... but i think more r gonna sprout. wahahaha... i planted a myriad of seeds... gonna hv quite a harvest...

God, jux wanna say, I love u...

anyway... when i was trying to perfect the shots of my seedlings... i also wanted to take photos of ppl crossing the zebra... but can't master 2 things at a time... wahahaha... must b in the emo mood again but i thot taking photos of ppl crossing with umbrellas at midnite was quite cool. must b taking too much vit. E these days...

found a new canvas for my doodling... hahaha... i think i'm gonna regret it soon.